Day one: the first step!

today is the beginning of a new life. i have said this to myself a million trillion times and have failed miserably each and every time.

but today is different. it HAS to be different. i CAN do this and i WILL do this and i HAVE to do this.

i'm tired of being the fat girl that everyone likes, but is always the one awkwardly standing in the back. i'm tired of worrying about whether i will fit somewhere, and tired of ignoring the fact that when im with my girlfriends that i'm the odd man out. i'm tired of accepting that i am overweight and unhealthy, and i am going to do something about it.

this is the motivation station and i CAN do this.

so this is my anonymous blog and i am an anonymous person posting anonymous posts about how i'm going to do it.

i've sat here for 4 months getting angry at myself for letting myself slip into a junk food eating, sedentary, boring person when this was supposed to be my jump start into a new life. so screw that, i'm taking the reigns now.

i joined weight watchers and 24 hour fitness today. My first day at the gym will be tomorrow morning and my first meeting at weight watchers will be on Saturday. I'm afraid to see what my weight is, but i have a pretty good idea what it is and I can't say I'm thrilled to step on the scale.

on the plus side, it can only go down from here! this is probably the only place i could say something like that and not sound like a pessimist. :)