Last night I left work and thought to myself, I could avoid traffic and go to the gym again! Because mentally, I hadn't gone earlier (even though I worked out more than I had the past few days) and thought I could go again. But when I got there, i psyched myself out because it looked all steamy on the second floor and there were lots of people there. So I turned around and went home. Lame. But I had gone during my lunch break, and that was really good.
I went to my grandmothers house to drop something off, and she wanted me to stay for dinner and I had to say no. I felt so bad, but she didn't really have anything to eat (I dont eat a ton of meat, as I used to be a vegetarian) and the only soup she had was cream of ____. No thank you. I felt bad, she just wanted company, but I needed to do what's best for me. I feel uuber guilty though.
When I did go home, I made yummy vegetable stir fry with sweet and sour sauce... 20 calories per tablespoon and I only used about two. And I made a turkey burger with one slice of toasted bread. I never realized how many calories were in bread! I looked at the nutrition facts, and even though it was the whole wheat bran oat stuff, it was still 120 per slice! Crazy! So instead of using 2 peices for the burger, I just used one and cut it in half as a smaller bun. Totally worth it. I was so proud of myself, but for some dumb reason convinced myself that I was still hungry, even though I totally wasnt. I ended up eating some cottage cheese and one brownie bite that looked SO good, but ended up tasting gross, so I spit it out. At least I tasted it and didn't ingest it.
I went to my friends house to watch Heroes and they had pizza... and stupid me, I gave in and had three peices (but keep in mind, this pizza is thin and is notorius for even skinny mini's to eat an entire one by herself... i know, i know, not an excuse). BOO! I was mad at myself but there wasn't anything I could do after the fact. So when I got home I drank two huge glasses of water and went to bed.
I woke up early today. It is SO different and wonderful to not wake up with a hangover every morning. I can actually wake up and while I still hit the snooze button 5 times, I don't feel like I got run over by a truck. I got to work, and was reading the newspaper online... there was a big car pileup on the freeway I take to work at the time i would normally be driving on at the time, but since I had come in to work an hour early i had totally missed it! Scary.
I've been good today so far. I had a 100 calorie light yogurt and close to the serving size of honey nut cheerios for breakfast, and at work I've had two water bottles, two cups of coffee with non-fat creamer and 5 splenda between the two of them. I'm trying to cut back. I had another yogurt for lunch, and my grandma gave me a bunch of nuts that i am keeping in my car so I had some of those. I had some chocolate soymilk (SO GOOD) but since I wasn't hungry, I put it back in the fridge for later if I did get hungry.
My stomach isn't used to drinking this much liquid, and it's making noises. I also have to pee every 5 minutes, which is a good thing.
I don't have time to go to the gym today, which is worrysome, but since I'm making dinner tonight for my friend, I invited him to kick around the soccer ball for awhile down the street afterwards so that will be a little bit of exercise at least.
I'm really frustrated I haven't been able to go to Weight Watchers yet. I've been paying for it, but I haven't actually gone. The meetings are at times that I always have something to do, or I'm sitting in traffic. Last week was shot, and this week my free time keeps getting smaller and s maller. And next week I wont even be in town. Blah.
I'm so impatient. I read other peoples blogs, and see the progress that they've made and I wish I could just fast forward to that point. But hopefully in a few months I'll be the one others look at and wish they were at. I just have to remember that it's not a race, it's about getting healthy and losing weight the right way.
Thank you for your encouragements!
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Thanks for stopping by my blog..you can come by whenever you want! I am glad to provide encouragement, but you can do it too!
You will get to where you want to be. It takes a lot of time and patience, but it seems you are off to a great start. Your meals look really healthy, and I think you are making healthy choices. I remember when I started drinking this much water, I went to the bathroom every half hr! But it feels amazing.
I know how hard it is to not want to do things with other people becuase of the food they have or the temptation but you just have to decide sometimes whats more important it looks like you are doing that.
and P.S....pizza is my #1 STAY AWAY FROM food. I crave it like nothing else.
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