I should have known my horoscope was giving me a warning yesterday. I've been just fine the past few weeks but my horoscope yesterday for today was that i'd get moody all of a sudden and they weren't kidding. everything is making me angry.

I checked my email about 20 minutes ago and saw I had one from yahoo personals. i had TOTALLY forgotten I had made a personals profile when i was 19 and thought I was ugly, fat etc and wanted a boyfriend. and what I had to say was mortifying. But what was even more mortifying were my pictures. I hardly recognized myself. What have I done to myself? I copied and pasted one of them into photoshop and took a photo I took last weekend and compared the faces and I don't even recognize the person from when I was 19. i am in total shock. I didn't think it was that bad, now I wonder what other people think. Holy crap. I immediately deleted the personals thing. I can't believe I did that in the first place, but wow.

I feel like I'm headed towards a downward spiral. But maybe it's what I need to pick myself off the floor and stop being lame. Yesterday I prayed for the first time in forever and I asked for motivation to change my lifestyle.

Maybe this was it.